when i first ventured into that deep dark world.she was somewhere deep down hidden from eyes.i was tired of trying her peers.in dearth of gud choices when i decided to venture out .she showed me a glimpse of her.i was mesmerised at her first view.i fell in love wid her the moment i saw her.she was brimming with glow.i was awestruck at her perfectly curcaveous body.she was as soft as petal.first touch of her took me to another level.the more i went close to her the more i went ballistic.i cant have enough of her.i planted many kisses on her.she blushed and promised to be with me entire life.

hey wait.....before you jump on to any conclusion let me tell you its my new "tunic top".  i just cant have enough of d tunic i brought few days back.its so lovely....red polka dots on her<(???)yup its so feminine>adds to her glory.she is made up of lenin.she knows how to hide my flaws.she makes sure to turn heads whenever i wear her.

she is as young as the girl who just attained her adulthood.she is capable of making anyone compatible with her.but she is so awesome that she deserves a new man(????)in  her life.so i got new "narrow bottom jeans "to match up wid her status.

"he" and "she" look as good as couple who just returned from their "honeymoon".she never says a word when i throw her in heaps of clothes.when i take her out to wear again she is as fresh as usual.i hope they(he and she)never get divorced.May god give them always the place in my wadrode no matter how old and worn out they are.even if they die their ancestors should stay with me.

so all im hoping is "she produce's cute little young ones" whom i can adore even more than her

               she is truely perfection personified

"im bored wid eating same pizza's & burger daily "

"lets go out and eat it"

"sandwiches yak!!!!im booored of them"

"im filled .i wont be able to eat it ....wat to do wid these left over ????throw wat else!"

"inflation??nope it hasnt affected much my food expenditure"

all of us must have used statements like this at some point of time in our life.many of us dont even give a second thought while throwing those leftovers or while spulrging at that newly opened swanky restaurant.

 just have a look at this snap ....

nita &lalit are like any other kids who live on pavements,thrive on food thrown by people in dustbins or sometimes no food at all.go to work when their better off counterparts are going to school,get beaten by their masters and at the end sacrifice their life because of some cranky affluent stud who couldnt control himself after that booze party or some spoiled celeb.......

nita and lalit belong to that category of people who dont have enough money to feed themselves two square meal a day.according to a recent survey india is home to about 33% of world's poor.for these people sandwich and pizza's are unattainable luxury.

recently on a prominent news channel they featured a story of young boy who's father work in factory and earned just 100 rs a day.he told how price rise has affected his life.earlier the same 2rs he got fetched him sooo many "moongphali"but now for 2rs he gets too little.these are the people who can tell how inflation has affected their life.i request u all to atleast feed one such needy kid once a day and see the smile that glows on their face

heyaa ilanders!!!!

im so proud and privleged to be featured on home page.i enjoyed all the attention i received from everybody on iland.it came @ time when i was pakofied from blogging and all and i was thinking to actually take a break,long-long one.

but ur adulation and criticsm brought back my interest.im charged again.there have been so many comments,gb entries,mails .It will take  me some days in reading all of them.

few people mailed me saying whether i write to draw attention or to get praise.let me clarify im not wannabe ,not even attention seeker .i dont write for adulation either.i speak my mind.i dont follow adulation they follow me(offcourse im exaggerating it).im learning to take criticism with a pinch of salt.

there were too many comments so i cant really respond to you all personally.thanks ppl for visiting my blogs .i felt like a prolific writer .u ppl made my day.

muwaaahs to all 

special muwaahs to rediffiland people.u made my day.

p.s  im  these days busy wid my tests so when that gets over il visit most of my newly added friend's post and post comments and post few more posts too

till then tadaa

yipee!!!!! its my birthday today...i turned 19 today.....i have mixed set of feelings today....im feeling happy that i finally turned 19.i always wanted to be old....offcourse without wrinkle....most of the ppl forgot my birthday....i was expecting too many calls but it turned out to be very few....i always remember everybody's bday but everybdy forgets mine...i guess im not a great human being thats y....i guess i need to stop expecting from people.everybody can be really mean but thats how ppl are....its my worst birthday.....im down wid cold....have my exams frm monday so its so boring....i aint enjoying at all......my all plans are shelved...i culdnt donate blood....i culdnt go to temple culdnt spend tym wid slum kids ....no partying either...

n yup i forgot to tell that i have taken few vows which i better not break

so here goes my vows......

1)to hopefully study this year and come out with flying colors in exams

2)to be bit more extrovert.....

3)to actually trash filthy guys whu asks "can i do fraand ship wid u???"actually im quite a fattu.....i simply ignore them n i also feel its beyond my class to talk to them.

4)to be less class consious....vaise i get along wid almost everyone n i also claim to be god's best creation but i dnt know from where this class thing got struck in my heart

5)to actually not laugh on hideous girls...i cant resist my laughter when i see any gal commiting fashion faux....n i laugh at their terrible gujju accented english  but i dont wanna be doing this...i know its bad thing to do.

6)to be less abusive.u know i have caught wid bad habit of giving abuses.i like giving some of them but most time its too much.....

7)to be less bitchy n not to bitch abt even my gud friend's behind there back.

8)to not get influenced by my stupid peers and continue thinking im class part

9)to seriously work in the direction of making to iim ahmedabad .....

10)last but not the least my "celebacy vow"....i chose to abstain from sex till i get married

i feel its tuff but not so hard in india....

and few thanks giving tooo .....i wuld like to thank god for being with me at every step and helping me sooo much in life i luv u god.......my dad ,mum for bringing me up so well i love ya both ...muwaah....sis for being my punching bag and helping me in gossiping and  bitching and laughing on hideous ppl.....

"cousins" for always being there when i need u all most and also for being there always to dicuss my non stop nonsense abt crushes....

i feel so content today and i feel i have got much more then i culd have imagined.n yaa last but not least "rediffiland"and my friend's on iland for sharing my anexity's and helping me become better person in life.

muwaaah's to u all.....

and the special thanks to people whu read my blogs and mail me saying i write absured stuff ....i kinda love this love -hate relationship.....

thanks all........

hey every1 i have nothing to write or actually i have no inclination to write anything interesting.so i decided to write about myself u know this is my favourite topic and i can go on on and on abt myself but il try to keep it short."who am i??" actually i hate this question .actually im too peterified of writing about myself on various social networking sites including that stupid "orkut"too .even though i spend my more than 5 hours daily on orkut i call that stupid i wonder y???intially when i started i use to chat wid sooo many people but now its just  limited talking to family and friend's....okay i luv talking to strangers.actually i luv knowing about different people but people on networking sites are more than hideous actually preposterous.you know even if one wanna talk to different type of people one cant on these networking sites .take my advice if ur a gal never talk to another on networking  sites.most of the gals over there are actually lesbo's or "god knows wat" .not that i hate lesbian people but i actually cant get along wid this kinda people.the very idea of getting involve wid people of same sex seems dirty to me.i thought i was very unconventional but i realised im very traditional when it comes to sexuality and love.like many girls of my age or may be very few i grew up watching rapunzel and cindrella.platonic love ,"happily ever after"these ideas seems very romantic to me.i may be called regressive by today's standard but thats how i am.im turning 19 in a week & im missing somebody "special"in my life.im feeling empty .but i dnt wanna turn into desperate looser.while there was never a year in which i never had crush on ne1 but u know nthing never worked or may be i didnt  wanted anything to work.i loved commitment but i feared 1."finding love online"this very idea seems too filthy to me.i mean its really stupid yaar despite  that everytime i had conversation with some interesting guys(they were very few)i had crush on them.these days im hooked on to some banker whu's like in late 20's.and says really cute things about me.but i know someday this crush will die too .my many friend's and cousins have gone in for dis internet lover sort of thing but u knw i get pissed off when some "virtual"friend asks my number or plans to meet up.i actually kick that kinda people out of my profile.but u knw he's nt told me anything of this sort to me and has some really intelligent people in his profile but whu know's these seemingly gud guys turns into wat??nobody know's.....u knw few days back i had conversation frm smbdy frm iima n he was soo cheesy yak!!!!i thought these brainy guys are inaccessible.i may be wrong but i came to conclusion that almost all guys are cheesy,desperate .....whu are ready to jump into u know wat  ...  im extremely uncomfortable with porn .i mean its so filthy,vulgar.but i know like all guys watch dis.if my man was caught watching any of these stuff i would kick him out of my life.nor can i sleep with every other guy or actually no guy before marriage.these days a guy looks for sexual satisfaction n then commitment,emotions or watever afterwards..il definately never approve of this.now i dnt think there is any single guy whu doesnt want anyof these things in a women b4 marriage in gal...well kissing ,peck and coochy cooing n all is okay but physical relation is too much....if u would have read my blog"how to arrange ur arrange marriage"you would have got  this idea that im really stubborn ,feminist women and i cant change that.n u know even if i get into arranged marriage sort of thing il be like very uncomfy wid the idea of knowing that actually my hubby had streamy past .i wanna be blisfully ignorant but u know i m too nosey so that wont be possible....so i come to conclusion that it wont be possible for me to be in relationship and blisfully married sort of thing.so i better concentrate on my career perhaps.i may make it to gr8 bschool (seeing the amount of hard work i put into its not at all possible)but even if i do wat will change??i may get too many proposals but again the same criteria's.i feel if i think too much about this i may die out of depression but best is to leave on god

there are quite a number of people in todays world  whu inspired me for their unmatchable attitude and personaity...these are d people whu chose to do something for society.these are the one's whu chose not to be a commner .hats off to them .i hope i can do even the 1/3 of they did.its already too late in night will be writing about them very soon

sarath babu's journey from slums of chennai to asia's best b-school iim ahmedabad has been nothing but inspiring.his story is typical rags-to riches 1.but behind the story there is tremendous hard work involved.his mother whu apart from working in "aganwadi"also sold idli to feed him n his other siblings is "d" sole inspiration for  starting his venture "foodking" a chain of cafe's n caterting outlets.inspite of many lucrative offers from big company's he chose to start his own venture .how many of us  actually resist the temptation  of gr8 life,standard n money to actually start something of our own..inspite of making loss of 20 lakhs in first year he was determind to  succeed .this 2005 iima passout turned things other way round with his hard work n made a profit of 35 crores this year....this lad has passion to do something  for society n still lives in a hut in slums of chennai.he wants to ensure that nobody in india dies out of hunger.im sure with this kind of attitude he would definately succeed

 sarath babu(former iim ahmedabad grad,also know as idli king)

vikram akula(ceo microfinance,hyderabad)

sam manekshaw(the unsung hero)

mr r subrimaniam (founder subhiksha)

will write about them  n more people very soon till den pls bear with me.and as always keep blogging keep commenting

this post is specially dedicated to galz like me whu have litle talent or inclination to date any guy....n are feminist...so only thing left is to arrange urvery own "arrange marraige"nope i not in marriagable age yet but u know im quite planned so i have planned things well in advance.....so here we go arranging our great indian arrange marriage ....but in zara hatke style.....not like the typical chauvinistic boring usual "arrange marriage"in which bride comes holding tray filled wid eatables...and guy's parents are ready to pounce over girl...n bombared her wid silly questions.....

first step here is dont leave everything to ur parents....no im not telling u to disrespect ur parent's view but more input should be from your side....dont  meet guy and his family straight in a formal meeting arranged by your parents...instead insist on meeting him first in a casual  meeting if hes found worthwhile then only go in for meeting his family...while meeting his family for god sake dont go in for those "kanjivarams"...this gives impression to ur prospective in-laws ur parwati-tulsi types...though ur traditional but u cant be clad in saree 24*7(nothing against saree's)...for  a change u can turn up in a nice formal top n jeans u can also opt for nice but not so conservative salwaar-suit....even noodles strap salwar-suit is nt too loud these days.....this is enough to give ur prospective inlaws glimpse of ur life style...no,dont even think for turning up in ur sleeping shorts...even if u dont wannna enter into alliance just a polite  "no"would work

second,dont just settle down for any gauddy guy...because ur biological clock is ticking...by the time most of us independent women think of settling down its already 29...by now u would be peterified of attending your friend's and colleagues wedding and 1st,2nd,3rd,4th anniversary....n frustated by the lack of  sex life(in case ur my kind whu would wanna wait till getting married before surrending everything).....

traditional doesnt means suppressed....voice ur opinion u have equal right to demand virginity and chastity as guys have....

dont go blindly for looks....looks can be misleading..there is a famous sayin "never judge a book by its cover"....guy can be really goodlooking but narrow minded...n if u go in for average looking guy ul be d"centre of attraction"whenever u go out with him....and studies have shown average guys are less-prone to "infidelity"

i know money is d important factor while hunting groom so is status after all whu doesnt want to be              "MRS CEO"....   but being" socially aware n responible".... is equally important.....if ur from those breed of     "GEN  Y" ....... then asking him whether hes involved with "NGO " or would  like to go for community sevice can be good option for making sure hes socially responisble......if ur feminist kind like me then u can say that ur parents will also stay wid u.no we r not telling that he should become "ghar jamai"instead u both can buy a house together (after all y u n he's earning gr8 package?)in which ur mom n dad,his mum n dad,u ,he,children,cockroaches,lizards,dogs ,cats every one can stay together.....siblings can buy their own house.....u wuld be thinking im going ballistic but 5 years down the line it wont be a big deal....n guys we love our parents as much as u do..y do only we have to sacrifice everything??sorry we wont leave our everything n come to ur place wid just a bag....vr as independent as ur .....

n girlz  while meeting him first time.....plz dont dont ask too intruding questions.....chillax leave something for talking over phone or  for meeting next time.....

n remember never loose hope if 1st,2nd,3rd 4th guy doesnt filt into ur criteria....we have whooping bilion plus population.....n even d sex- ratio has declined rapidly.so it means there is no dearth of choices....guys will be more than  willing to surrender to ur demands..........

hey ppl thanx fr so many comments.....i know u people  are waiting for dis blog...but u know im full time student...so it gets little tuff to be frequent .it may not turn out to be interesting but still will try and post soon so till den   coming soon..............................